Funk

I'm not entirely sure why, but I've been in a bit of a funk lately. There are just too many things to do in a day and I'm struggling to find the best way to accomplish it all. I've also been suffering from a feeling of constant nausea for the past three days. Tums don't help, it's not food poisoning, and I can't seem to find a way to alleviate the mild discomfort/pain. It's not debilitating, but it's certainly a mild handicap in trying to function throughout the day. I talked about it to a coworker and she said she experienced the same thing last week so perhaps there's something going around.

Although I suppose part of it could be caused by stress. I did suffer from acid reflux during high school so I know I'm capable of making myself ill that way. There's certainly been enough stressful matters happening, but it's mainly because of me. I'm trying to do too much at once so I end up not doing anything because it's like an information overload and my brain/abilities shut down.

What's more frustrating is that I'm aware that my window of opportunity for being single is dwindling to the end, and I'll no longer be responsible for just myself. I won't be able to devote all my time to my endeavors so I need to utilize my time perfectly. Of course, that just exacerbates my stress.

What I need to do is calm down, then spend a number of hours creating "business plans" to achieve all I want to and break it down to manageable pieces. I also need to do this at a library or somewhere NOT at home. Thinking about it, I've been spending all my time at home or at work, with a handful of trips to the grocery store and the like. I'm either working or at home, where I'm doing everything else. When it's my home, I'm doing EVERYTHING there and I think it's killing my motivation and creativity. It's causing me to feel trapped and it's causing me to fall into the same pointless routines.

I need a change of scenery. My mind isn't being stimulated. It's seeing the same thing over and over and over again. That's got to be it. I've been confused as to why I feel like I'm struggling more in this way now than I did in college, but it's because things were constantly changing. I lived somewhere different each year. I had multiple spots around campus that I enjoyed studying in. I had routine but it was still varied, and I'm not getting that now.

Can't wait to try this out! What's even better is that even through this I have something to blog about in my other future blog!